So read.:)

NOTE:

I HAVE a life (hehehe, I'm trying to convince myself that this is true) outside cyberspace. Pretty cool huh? Lol. :)) But I admit I am a webpage geek so I tend to do a lot of things here. Needless to say that this blog is my most personal impersonal space on the net. I don't remind people to read this everytime I write some new stuff but I've kept it public much to the delight of relatives, critics and some friends. Hehe. (I am THAT stuck up) I upload almost everything online. I keep them on different websites so if you're a little interested you can go check 'em out by clicking these links.:)



Expect drama.

Thursday, 19 November 2009

Saturday, 07 November 2009

  • Jitterbug jitterbug

    This blog is closing. I am opening a private one :P

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    Lola Onyang (my 'other grandmother - 90 something years old) passed away. I don't know how to feel really. I never knew who she was. And.. the last couple times I've seen her, she couldn't really remember who I am. It's just so sad. The worst part is, Tita Edna, the daughter who took care of her wasn't even beside her when she passed. None of her children were there. =/

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    My graduation ceremony is in a week. I haven't paid my final school bill yet. And I don't really feel like I've accomplished anything. But yeah.. it might be fun. We'll see. I wonder what I look like with the cap and gown.. Haha.

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    My family is reaching out. They went to my workplace just to get me to go back there to visit. I think it's premature. I'm just not ready. They even said I have a traffic ticket I need to get.. (Is it even real? I'm like the most careful driver around) Am I ever gonna be ready? It took a lot for me to escape the toxicity in that house. I know I haven't done anything great enough to be praised, maybe that's what scares me. I want to live in secret.. I want my failures to remain unknown. The fact of the matter is, I am doing everything without their help.. I am doing just fine. I will go there when I'm ready.

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    I am moving in with RJ and his family. It took a lot of thought but I am gonna give it a try. They took care of me when I was sick. This takes an awful lot of getting used to but I will give it a try. I don't want to believe that the whole concept of 'family' doesn't exist. I have to try.

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LaRcEyDoOdLe

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    • Name: Larcey
    • Country: United States
    • Metro: Sacramento
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 2/16/2005

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  • I tend to be complicated. I over-dramatize things. I always try to analyze everything and everyone even when I know I'm not supposed to. You'll know when something's bugging me cause most of the time, what's on my mind will end up bugging you too. I think everything is potentially poetic, don't you?

Dug dug.. Dug dug..